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Age: 24
Gender: Female
Location: Denver, Colorado

I have never tried meth but I have defiantly felt the effects. When I met my husband he told me he used to be addicted to meth but he had been sober for 5 years, and wanted a family, so that's what we did, had a beautiful daughter, got married. Soon after that I became pregnant with my son and slowly he started disappearing on the weekends. It started out a couple hours a night, then escalated to all weekend long. When he would return he would be sick, wanna sleep all day, and easily aggravated. I knew he was getting high again but he just denied it. It got to the point when I was about 8 months pregnant we couldn't pay any bills including rent because it was going towards his habit. When I finally had my son he didn't go to the hospital once or even pick us up when we were released instead he took our daughter to his sisters and was gone with my car doing god knows what. About a week later we were evicted from our house and that's when it got really bad. Me and the kids had no place to go and he took off and started getting high all day everyday. I haven't really seen much of him since, he totally abandoned us and says now he feels bad about it, and his guilt for what he did is what keeps him away. There is not a day that goes by that I don't play back what started it all, how we went from a happy family to this, what he was thinking the first time he got high, or what I could have done to prevent it. He is a totally different person now, he was so close with our daughter an now doesn't even care to see her. Its hard watching her ask for her dad and not knowing what to tell her, I cry an pray daily that one day he will be the guy he used to be but it seems to just be getting worse. I think meth is evil, it makes people hollow and ruins families. Because of meth I will forever struggle trying to make it through life with 2 innocent children, and they will forever have a father that puts them second to drugs. Its not fair to them, and it didn't have to be this way. I will never understand why but always wonder what is so important about the drug and lifestyle that makes people throw away everything good in their lives.

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